She slowly opened her eyes… It too a couple of seconds for her eyes to get used to the lighting conditions of the room… even though the curtains were drawn she could feel the evening…
The sun must be almost out… that’s the only explanation for the gloominess of the room… she thought to herself picking up the phone pressed a couple of keys… the LCD illuminated, 6.37PM… the display shone against the dimness of the room… her eyes started hurting disagreeing to the brightness of the mobile phone screen she quickly took her eyes off it and laid it back on the mattress…
“The day has almost passed….”
She slowly turned her head… he was still fast asleep… she could see his bare chest slowly moving up and down… she slowly leaned forward and kissed his shoulder... so gently… afraid to wake him up… he moved… muttered something in sleep… and tightened his grip around her and fell silent again…
She kept staring at him for another few seconds… filling her heart with a lot of love… a smile came over a her… effortlessly… she felt as if she could never be more happier…
She turned her head again to a more comfortable position, bringing the ceiling to her view…
She thought about her past… She remembered the day when the familiar face appeared from the crowd at the train station… She remembered how startled she was to see him walking towards him… How uncomfortable she got when he approached him and introduced himself. Even though she already knew… it was the first time they’ve officially talked to each other… She thought hard about that moment… wondering if she should feel happy or sad; for she still felt the same uncomfortable, complicated feeling that she felt at that moment.
Her thoughts were disturbed when she heard a loud honking sound outside… some stupid bus driver was making unnecessary noise on the road… she quickly looked at him… she didn’t want his sleep to be disturbed by anything… the honking stopped and she heard the bus racing its engine and slowly moving… the engine sound faded away slowly…
She let a sigh… and turned back to her thoughts…
She remembered the day he asked him out… again the same multifaceted feeling… She didn’t know how to react or even if she wanted it or not… she remembered how she simply told him to talk to her parents…
And how fast did things happened…. Soon they were to get married.... even on the wedding day she didn’t know if he’s the one she wanted… He’s good person… A VERY good person… there were no two words about it… but is he the person she wanted?? Is he what she expected in his partner for the rest of the life??? She remembered how she wondered even holding the flower bouquet in her hand…
She shut her eyes… not wanting to remember or think anymore… She wanted everything out of her head… she forced herself to think about the present… but the memories started playing vividly… the compromises she made… all of them… how she sat back and devour the unhappiness… the emptiness she felt all along… the sense of incompletion within her self… how she sacrificed her happiness over something she never understood… how her marriage became the biggest capitulation she made…
She tightened her eyelids... she wanted this to stop… opened her eyes and held him gently… forcing her thoughts to the present… for a second her heart filled with a warm delight… and then a piercing sadness… she felt complicated again….
All she ever wanted was to feel happy, to be loved and to be taken care of… but she never went pursuing it… she always waited… forcing herself to be satisfied with what she got…
She turned her head again and looked at him… thinking how happy he made her… thinking of all the understanding that he gave to her… how he made her feel whole…
She reached to her mobile pressed the key and checked the time… 6.50 PM… she kept the phone aside and looked at him again…
She let out a big sigh….. “It’s getting late… I should get going…” she thought; not noticing how her own fingers were fiddling with her ring…
8 comments:
simply awesome...love ur creativity and the thoughts that go into it...
uncertainity in the midst of something good in life...
everything is so clear and nice...yet the mind keeps questioning..
Those moments are so true in life.. this is simply awesome..you should write a part 2 to this..:-) and i'll be waiting to read it..:-D
Thanks Divine girl... Now.. if u really read it again... there are two ways to look at it.. i twisted the story itself... there are subtle hints here and there which u should pay a bit of attention to...
A second part.. hmmm... what do u suggest????
the end is wht im contemplating on, if its the husband she is lying next to or someone else.. or its the husband, still wondering if he's the one who could complete her unsatisfied past.
Excellent creativity, take sometime to polish up the writing, it would make it a good literature to read through even when days fade.
LS.. You got it where it hits brother... Thats where I wanted everyone to start wondering... and you really can look at it in both ways... in my mind... its not the husband... its someone else...
and true... i do need to work on it.. but i spent only about 45 mins on it.. so....
well its a common occurance of the mistake done in the edge of a knife to find whats on the other side. In this case im sure you meant to bring out wht i pointed in a sentence. ;-) wud love to know the 2nd part of it though.. whats ur say mr...
it was LD's idea to bring a second part... I'm still not sure weather i want to do it or not.. coz i really didn't think of it....
u need to spit it out man.
yes i know Thax..i too was wondering whether she's with the lover or Hubby...to verify i wanted you to do a Part 2..:-)
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