to you my sis....

yep.. another year has gone by akki... plenty has changes around me... loku ayya got married u know.. happened last month.. i was there in SL for little two weeks... if u were still around.. i'm sure I'd have run to see u on the same day I landed... LOL.. a hug from u would've made everything go away as it always did... :) oh well.. shit happens and ur not there.. LOL.. missed ya alot though... its weird though... anyone hardly even talks of ya... well.. at least the normal ppl we used to hang around with... strange how u never leave my mind... I don't think there is a single day that goes by without me thinking of u for a second... something would come up and I'd start thinking well akki would've loved to hear this one... and i bet u would... we always something hilarious to laugh at in everything.. LOL.. we were both equally crazy.. LOL... gosh i miss those days... i miss running around without giving a shit about anything.. i miss talking to about everything... i miss the only person who knew me inside out.... i miss being totally understood by someone else... i miss being loved by u... i miss the hug that made all the horrible things dissappear... i miss my friend... i miss my akki... i miss u.... the best sister that anyone in the world could ever have.... I MISS U SOOO BADLY... when things go wrong and when things are super fine... I know that u'd be really happy to hear about whats goign on around me these days men.. Love u loads akks... hope ur happy wherever u are... u deserve to be... i sure hope i'd meet to somewhere someday in some form... :) and till then, wish you a happy birthday... love ya and miss ya... :)

you would've been celebrating today.....

only i know how much my life is empty without you..... do you remember what my ex used to say???
"well.. there is someone thing that anyone who is in love with will have to cope with... that'll be you... I've often felt that I'm the second important thing whenever you're in the picture".....
he he.. well later on she understood that the love and specialty that I have for you was different to what I have for her... she equally liked you... I know that...
It was the comfort and the understanding that you gave me... I always felt warm and safe around you...
I remember when appachchi (sinhalese word for father) used to call you up and complain about me.... he knew that you were the one whom could convey anything to me.... in a very constructive way... none knew me like you knew me... i guess it was easier coz we were two of a kind... and we shared alot in common... and you saw through me and inside out... you were THE person akks.... and I miss soo sooo sooooooo much.... there ain't a day nor a special moment that i won't miss you... i always always wish that things were different.... i wish that you didn't have to go... Its your guidance that i'm still following akki... and .... you would've been happy for me today.... I miss being loved and to love someone to such an extent that other people don't even understand....

If things were different... you would've get a bunch of flower, a big card and a ton of love from me.... but its not... its life... you loose people... thats a part of the bitter truth... I'd wish you a happy birthday.... but I know that it won't be make much sense to you now... But wish you all the best where ever you are... you deserve that... and I wish you long life... and may you never come to pass away in such a horrible untimely death.... I love you darling sis.... and I miss you so so sooooooooooooooo much.... may you be happy and peaceful where ever you are....

and here's to you akki.... i know this song ALWAYS brought a smile to your face... and often made your day.....