He sat still, His curly hair untidy as ever… His long sharp eyes piercing through the square shaped spectacles…..not amputating his gaze away from her pretty face; the prettiest eyes that he has seen… trying to feel what he really felt inside… Love?? Hatred?? A complicated mixture of it??… What is this empty feeling, the numbness that prevents him from feeling anything but a blunt hurt??? He blinked once and spent another thirty seconds trying to decipher his own feelings….
The refreshing warm smell of the hot chocolate, light soft music and the soft lit orange walls made his mind race back to a past that he didn’t know if he wants to remember or forget!! He slowly leaned back to the comfortable leather sofa and closed his eyes… blinding himself from her pretty face… letting his mind race back through time… remembering the very moment that triggered the whole chain reaction.
How fast time flies??? He focused back at her pretty face…. “Angel”… he called her as he did all this time… trying to see her reaction… the numbness of the mind came over him again… he opened his eyes half way and the uncertainty that clouded him made him closed them again… scared to see her reaction…
His racing mind stopped at a point of time…. The rainy afternoon, dimly lit room…. She looked back at him…. “If you don’t like to call her in her short name that everyone else uses…. What would you call her??”
Leaning back on the sofa with eyes still closed… a pleasant smile lightened his face after a long time… in his mind before his eyes he could see the memories play like a short movie….
He tilted his face slightly… with a smile spreading on his face… his eyes with the same piercing look with full of affection that overwhelmed her heart….
“I’ll call her angel” he said softly….
Still looking at her he could see her heart leaping with joy… her angel eyes giving away all the details of what went through her mind… he felt a warm feeling that filled him with joy…. The happiness to see her happy… a satisfaction and a rewarding feeling of being the person that made her happy…
He let out sigh… tilted his head down… and opened his eyes… the steam that was once proudly sending the sweet aroma of the hot chocolate was plummeting…
He slowly picked the mug and let a small sip… letting the warm taste of cocoa to refresh his whole body…
He slowly kept the mug back on the coaster… leaned back closing his eyes again… letting his mind wander again...
“You left.... leaving me here alone…..” she said in a complaining voice….
“Sorry sweetie it was an emergency… this is real important….” There was a small silence… he felt his heart getting heavier with every passing moment….
“Driver…. Turn the vehicle around!! I forgot something important….” “Liar” he thought to him self…. “What am I doing…?” He asked himself…. But somewhere deep down he knew what was about to happen….
He jumped out of the vehicle…. A small drizzle was coming down…. He ran in…
“Hey...” he called out.
She turned around in surprise…
“You came back?”
“Yeah… told them that I forgot something…” he chuckled… gazing at her angel eyes… again they were talking to him…
His mind spoke to him... "yeah you did forget something..."
They stepped closer to each other… and a bit closer…. He knew… she knew… he could feel her warm breath on him…. They closed their eyes…. Letting themselves to get carried away for a beautiful two seconds… letting the warmth of the first kiss to flood there mind and bodies…
She withdrew.... “This is not right….” “I don’t know… I don’t know if this is right…..”
She turned around and looked at him with a plea in her eye….
“Its ok angel… I understand….” He didn’t want think if it’s right or wrong… knowing that it’s just a beginning… whatever it is…. He had his mind set….
He opened his eyes… the hot chocolate still laying in front of him... the dimly lit orange walls still looking the same as it was back then…
He looked at the empty seat in front of him… wishing that she was still there with him… he wanted to tell her that it’s been an year…
“Yes angel… it’s been a year since we’ve first kissed…”
The same numbness started to fill his heart…. He leaned back and closed his eyes… still not knowing if he wants to remember or forget….
Thackhshila - Oct, 2006
33 comments:
Nice one Thakshika. Is it your work? If so you are gifter mate. Seems like reading this one gave me a meaning for this lovely Monday morning.
that was awesome........ i believe that it;s ur wrk..:) i love reading and writing and i relly enjoyed readin urs..:)
hey thanks people... yeah that is mine...
glad that you ppl liked it... :)
wow...that's some talent u've got thackshila!:) amazingly good..:) ur very good with ur descriptive writing..:)
Man if I can write like you I will mesmerize hellova lot of girls that’s for sure. Talent is what they go for dude. Well the talents on the furniture comes later on hak hak.
FM, do not corrupt this talented guy....:p let him be in peace! ...;)
Madame Devine. For now I shall leave him alone. But my man if you want any help u know where to look for :)
okay...:) Don't we all know where to look for...;) The master is not far away!!!:)
Well its my pleasure to service the society. If any one wants my help ask Divine she know my contacts :)Thanks you!
yes ofcourse..:) would love to be a part of your "willing to help society" programme..:)
See people are willing to help me to make a better society. Keep it up.
man thts hot piece of romance and intrigue recollection of memory. is it real or novelistic? besides a woman edge towards a man who is romantic, capable of loving himself and the grl and would express his feeling n love in front of anyone, they like the old faily/novel type of love. so when you its the right one for you... just do it ;-)
FM: talents on the big leather black couch seconds or not the most priortised. when a grl is like a long beach drive and not the 10 sec sprint race ;-)
LD: all men aint innocent... :D
Well said lo$s $oul buddy. Well said.
hey ppl... me am busy and guess what the bad news is... during the thunderstorm on saturday night my PC got busted and its not fixed yet!!
I'm running around other ppls PCs just to get the work done.. :(
thanks for all the feed back on the writing...
Feather- I wish u were right on that part of mezmerizing the female folk with the talent.. he he he... i might be able to use that a bit!!!
and divine - maybe u can pass on the contact details of our good mr feather man... might come in handy someday... and maybe urs too.. he he he.... :)
and Lost soul my man.... very well said mate.... thumbs up on that one...
well some men explore, some exploit, some lost about wht beauty they hold. we all make mistakes, wish for turn back times...are u goin to finish on the story... or too painful..??
Sad to know that Mr. Monsoon have stuck you Thakshila. (That bastard)
Regarding my talents mmm you can call me MR.HITCH if you like to haha.
ahhaaha MR. HITCH, i prefer LOVE Doc ;-) wht do u think FM? sounds more masculine and yet to catch the interest of a lady ....... :-D??
FM - would u seriously be MR Hitch???? ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...I cud use some help..:) i'll let u knw..:D
Actually, i've loved and lost and this story kinda inspired me again and made me feel what i used to feel some time back..made me realise how much i miss those lovely times...
But behold, FM just mite be able to help me find a better experience..:) well, there's this reall sweet guy here..:) i'll fill u all abt it later..
U knw wats great? i've found some great pals..FM, Thackshila and Lost soul - erm, Lost soul i've known during school time, then lost touch and now re-united!!:)
Dont worry Divine. Life is a stage were we all have different acts to perform (I said that)and I'am At your service Madame.
Hey Divine girl... thats sweet...
mr. Lost soul... Thats the end of the story...
and LD... I don't think you need a Hithch.... you should be loved for whom you are.. not for the person whom others want you to be...
I want to fall in love with someone for the person whom she is and for her to love and accept me for the person I am... not for a person whom she wants me to be.. true that i will have to change a bit here and there to suit her likings and I definitely will change a for her.. but overall if you're expecting her to be someone whom she is not... thats not gonna work out.. I've seen trying to change the once they love... controlling them... but when u look at it.. they don't love that person.. they love themselves... thats why they're trying to change the other person to suit them!!!
LD: thank you thank u.. yeh just like me, lost but now in touch. hmm wud u believe im talkin again to a kindergarden class mate :D
all: life n love is about lil deception, lil lies, false situation for a real love. man/woman are runnin too fast to relaise of the beauty that is at near. they believe in dramatic measure of occurance rather the content of it. its hard to please one and another, the expectation level vary. man's mind in terms of love is far more complicated than program ever written on earth. if only someone had the handbook for it. its how you look at love and how that love makes you out to be. its hard ever to find wht ur heart wants cos its never in own place until it finds it home.. but some of us arent that lucky...
FM - thank u soooooooooooo much!!:)
Lost Soul - i somewhat agree wit u...:) dats a vast topic to talk abt...and it doesn't hv any borders so we can actually talk abt it for eternity..
Thacks - ur rite.i didn't mean anythng like that. it's just that i've noticed this really sweet guy and want FM to help me hitch..;) it
s got nothing to do abt changing one's self...trust me, things will eventually fall into place if they're meant to be..:) BUt this guy, he doesn't wrk in the same dept and i dont even know his name...gonna find out though.. i hvn't had this nice feeling for some time..:)oh sweet life..:)for the moment..:)
oh.. so u dont even know his name..well you have a looong way to go then...
just find out if he's the same good guy that his outer appearence shows...
and yeah.. it is a good feeling... makes u feel that ur life is worth living... nothing like good companionship to get our lives going..
just be carefull... you don't want ur heart broken.. thats one of the worst things ever!!
Let me tell u some thing. Love before getting to know some one is not the way it works. First get to know them. Not like here and there but through and through. For me friends works better. Some times they remain as friends always but hardly one manages to peak in to the next level. Even how hot or wild the woman is love is not some thing I trust in very much. There was a time I thought that love is 'the' thing. But not its not. Love is 'some' thing which keeps life going. But there are other things that count.
I'm with u on that one FM!:)time does wonders doesnt it?...
thacks - i knw wat u mean. but the feeling of liking someone after a breakup feels good..:) he's so sweet men... it's weird but i find myself thinking of him alot... i don't knw why its happening..im usually not like this.
Divine - Were u watching too many hindi movies lately? ( Just kidding)
well well divine.. you watchout now.. better to get to know the guy before anything... i mean not that ur incontrol of what you feel...
just out of curiosity... you have the total liberty in no answering this... what do you mean when you say "he is so sweet"
Never knew you could write this well dude...
Well Apsara... there are many hidden talents in me!!!! ;-)
Another brother with some painful memories, and struglles, trynna hustle some Rupees to get a livin', feelin' that he'd never seein' and end to misery and the sleepless nights, He's trynna kiss them goodnight but come the morning, it bites. Thats right, this is verse for the brother who're down, trynna come up in this game of life, ain't nothin' nice, right? gotta struggle, gotta hustle, gotta stay on that track, Thax ma' man you a legend, DELACRUZ got yo bax!
This piece is so sweet and i believe to write like this you are gifted! xxxxxxxx
This piece is so sweet and i believe to write like this you are gifted! xxxxxxxx
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