Darkness.....

The dark gloomy skies with no spec of light…

Leaves me wondering…

Has the sun given up on this world???

Leaving it to drench in the unforgiving darkness…

Where is the light that used to accost me every morning??

I clearly remember how it used to shine…

When I looked out side and felt the warmth…

The warmth that brought a smile to my face…

My visions blurred…

The misty veil makes me partly blind…

Nothing but smears and distorted figures…

Where am I???

The screaming silence…

What happened to the melodious sounds that gave life to the mornings???

I want cry out loud…

But no sound comes out…

What has gone wrong?

Has some unholy terror has unleashed its legions in to the world?

Spreading the poisonous gloom and misery??

What is killing the sweet mornings??

I closed my eyes trying to shut myself… Disconnect from the enclosing gloom…

Hoping that I can feel more alive…

Hoping that I can feel how I used to feel every morning…

Then it dawned to me…

Its not the world..... The gloom is inside…

Things that irritates me these days.....

I'm a patient man... well.. I've taught myself to become patient... once upon a time I was not this patient... and I was quite famous for that too.... but in time I've matured and I taught myself to be patient, practiced and put a lot of effort and built my tolerance to bull shit (above normal limits I should add)...

but the truth is that I do get pissed off... just that I don't react like I used to... or the people involved don't see how much I'm pissed off to be more precise...

and there are these other smaller facts that irritates you... You don't get F***ing pissed off... but still annoys and irritates you... I'm constantly getting irritated by a few things these days... here are a few... in a random order..

Kids with loud music on buses...
mostly teenagers with mobile phones... They really are under the impression that everyone wants to listen to their stupid music... I always have my own music with me... I've been carrying my own mobile music player for the passed 6-7 years... from the old Walkmans, to disc man to mp3 (disk) players to my iPod (current) and I listen to kinda hard stuff... here... with Dimmu Borgir beating up my ears i still can hear some idiots music on their mobiles... the audio quality is nil and its an irritation to the ear!!!!

Chewing gum on public places...
Specially in buses... you step on chewing gum... you accidentally touch some bloody hell... its so annoying... why cant they just put it in to a bin or NOT stick it on the bus where ppl will come in to contact...

Teenagers screaming there heads off on the road...
as if someone is committing a massacre on the road!!! (girls) They bloody yell and scream at the top of their voice... just because they saw a friend or something... but its sooo irritating...

Butt heads who leaves bottles and empty cans in buses...
they roll around and I almost broke my neck while climbing down the stairs from the bus... stupid idiots...

Last but definitely not least
the stupid fart head who this this house with me...
its a Sri Lankan who has been here for sometime now.. about 55, single... not seeing anyone also... a stupid lonely miserable man... I rarely complain about people i have to put up with... but this man is pushing it... too far too wide...He makes stupid points and try to boss me around... and thats something that I really don't take very well.. Its not a position that anyone can take, takes a lot to earn that position... and he brings up stupid arguments and makes all sorts of comments; He just knows how to f***ing piss me off in a VERY bad way.... we've had a few head on collisions a few time s already and I really did tell him off... no wonder he's alone and drunk!!!! and I've complained to the land lord too... now things are kinda settled... but if i go missing again... thats because I'm in custody for murder... or I've relocated and need to fix everything from the scratch.... he he he..

Out and About....

Finally... The headaches are over and things are settled...
Basically BT decided that they should set up the phone line and my ISP decided that its time that they hook up my connection.... now I'm all geared up and back online....

Life was a bit tough during the past.... well month and a bit... now that I have my broadband connection up and running it'll be more peaceful....

Now I really don't have to sleep at 9.00pm coz i hate starring at the TV... actually I didn't have to since I got my PC assembled... still it took some time to get the whole act together...
apart from that life was very much ok....

Uni life is good.... They have some lovely helpful nice people there... I really like the people that I have to work and study with...
course work is interesting and enjoyable, i like the facilities... overall its good....

The city... well... it really doesn't buzz like London... its much more calmer than London or to that matter some parts of Colombo.. he he... maybe I feel because its cold... anyway... they say that the city is re-inventing itself in to a more modern and trendy one... and it seems that... the new shopping malls and everything is very good.... since its related to me... fashion wise the city has a long way to go..... you really cannot say that its a very fashionable city... they have most of the high street shops and brands... but its good... i like it..... and comparatively quite cheaper than London... in that case... every were else must be cheaper than London...
still I like the people... and it is peaceful... not much of a rush... and apparently its supposed to be safe and all that...

bottom line... i like it....

Hope things in SL is good... I do miss SL.. my friends and family mostly..... and the sweet fun packed life that I used to have... he he he...

Back from the Grave.....

Well after an eternity I finally have time to sit nicely and do a bit of scribbling here....

So... I'm finally settling down and started the "normal" life. Once the stupid ISP fix my internet everything will be normal.

Its not easy to come in to a strange land make your self at home... I mean... home is home and it cannot be replaced I suppose... but I like it here... I miss all my friends, my parents, being able to drive around whenever I want and having enough cash to spend whenever I want to on whatever I want... living on a student budjet in a country that has a very strong currency is not easy you know!! anyway.. fuck that.. I'm here and I need to make the most of it...

Uni has started and has been going on for the last few weeks. There was alot of things to be done since I joined in to the second year straight... so that is why I didnt have much time to read or write... Actually even now its the lunch brake... and since I'm not in my usual group today I finished lunch sooner than usual!! and found out that I have about twenty minutes to spare and there are actually a few unoccupied PCs in the IT center... so here I am.. after almost a month... yeah... its a full month for today since I left SL.... gosh i miss the weather... warm sunny weather...
Anyways... hi to all you guys... hopefully you've not forgotten me.... and I should tell you that it feels good to be back... he he he...