Another song...

This is a sinhalese song... by the famous singer Shihan Mihiranga - the guy from Sirasa TV, I should say that i was impressed by this song!!!

07_Pathu_Nethu(1)....

Check out the "Wallpaper of the Day" in my blog!!!

You will notice i've added a small thumbnail the the left middle of the page below the lable cloud....

This is a free wallpaper from Gamewallpapers.com. If you're a cyber games enthusiast you'd find this interesting. The wallpaper is updated every 24hrs and you can download it to a preferable size to fit your desktop.... check it out!!!

New year...

Yay.... a week long holiday!!! The longest that we ever get!!!

From tomorrow till the 18th!!!! :-)

and from my younger days it used to be my fav holiday!!! you know the school term holidays... A time of refreshment and life... It was exciting all around...

Now the spirit is not there anymore... The freshnes is still in the air but its not as fun as it used to be!! Maybe its for the little ones only... not for people of our age!!!!

still its new year.... Wish you all a Happy New Year!!!!

Is it too early to think of it???

In one of the previous posts I told you ppl that both my parents retired by the end of last year!!! and then they both caugth the wretched chickungunya thing!!! That was hell... it is still hell coz it effected both of them VERY badly... they couldn't walk properly coz of of the joint pains!!! me and my bro's actually took turns in going up to kandy to be with them and look after them... it was not easy... with work and all.... but we did what we could... but to be honest i don't feel like i've done anything at all!!! I don't feel like i've done enough!!!

Anyway... when their health went down and leaft them helpless..... if effected their minds VERY badly... imagine working straight on for more than 30years day and night.. having millions of responsibilities... being under pressure... and all of a sudden not doing much work... being at home... three years ago I would've thought "Hell now THAT is life!!!" but... being more or less a work o holic... and being used to having a million of problems and pressure... and liking all that.... I know how diffi it must be!!! I'm sure that they must be feeling like nothings... they must be feeling as if they're not important anymore!! specially with the Sri Lankan ways where no one has any regards for the elderly people in society...
And I can see that they're REALLY missing work!!! They miss being important, they miss doing what they did best in their whole life...

Like I told you before my mom was teacher... She taught in Mahamaya girl's school Kandy... two weeks ago I had to drive her their because she had somethings to do at the school... It was the first time she went back since her retirement.... I needed some help from one of the teachers there for an assignment so I also went in to the staff room with her!!!!
My mom was back where she belonged, with her friends and the children!!! I could see how happy she was just to be there!!!! It was like she had forgotten all her pains and aches and sicknesses!!! She even looked younger!!!

I felt something complicated!!! I automatically started thinking how and where I'd end at!!!! is it too early to think of that?? or is it never too early to think of it???

When I dream about you.....

Looooooooooong busy week end...

Friday Night...

Well i started from Kandy on Friday.. came to office at around 2.00PM.

The plans were made during the day time to go out with some of my friends. We got together and went to R&B at around 11.00PM. For me thats one of the cooles night clubs in Colombo... its more matured like... cool crowd and nice music. We had mega fun dancing till about 3.30 a.m.....

Then out we came and some of us were feeling hugry... and yes... you guessed right... where else to go but to pillawoos... We hopped in to Chathu's car... and headed towards Kolpetty....

On our way we were stopped by police for a routine check... and then came the "Oh Shit!!" situ... My friend's sister didn't have her ID with her!!! The scene got ugly when one of my buddies got a biiiit violent and said something that "annoyed" the cops... What happened after that was pretty bad... she immediately turned out to be a pros in the eyes of the cops... they said a few things that they really shouldn't have... but at the perticular moment.... under those circusmstances it was inevitable... I basically had to calm everything down (being the eldest and the sober one out of the bunch!!) and talk my way thorugh in to letting us go... It wasn't hard actually but what that poor girl had to go through because of some loud mouthed idiotic cops was bad... she was upset... we all were upset and it basically killed the mood.....
we had tea... headed back home...

Saturday.

Woke up at 9.00 a.m as I had and exam in the after noon.... so got up... got myself in the "exammination" mood... and then headed to the exam hall by 11.30... finished the exam at around 4.30 pm and from there went straight up to Rajagiriya.... why?? to meet ma good friend chathu and with him to see the "Modified car fest" in battaramulla....

Now that was one hell of a show... in SL standards... there were some classy shit there... a couple of supra's caught my immediate attention... nice sexy looking Honda civics... some RX8s with sexy curves.. STis that were dying to jump in to the roads and run like mad dogs... Mitsubish's who was ready kick the guts out of anyone who wanted to challege them...
It was awsome... and there we were... in Chathu's custom made Mustang... creating quite a scene there... we never entered the contests... It really didn't interest us.. but we did enjoy walking around listenning to the baby's purr here and there... checking out the neons'... music systems blah blah blah... and yo... not to forget the ONLY other muscle car... i think it was a 7 sri Toyota Corona hatch back... two head lights... nickle trimms etc... looked good... nice to see some muscle spirit spreading.... he he he...

We loafed around in that place till about 9.00 and right before the rain we headed back home... i mean to his place...

And then it started.... and yeah... it was a massive rain... it basically rained cats and dogs and kittens and puppies.... massive rain... and i fell asleep in a cosy couch.... woke up next morning to see aunty holding a cup of tea!!!!

Sunday...

There was a celebration on... Chris's birthday... we stormed his place... gate crashed that buggers house... ate his lunch and knocked ourselves out... by 7.00 P.m we were all set to go to Parliment grounds to pay a little visit to the giant screen....

And it was massive... a sea of crowd... cheering the SL team... the screen gave a little bit of problems in the begining but they managed to fix it... after that it was super... it was good... great sounds better... I really think SLRC deserves a pat in the back for setting that mega screen there... coz it was more like actually being at the ground itself... with hundreds of people shouting and cheering... papara bands playing all over... it was awsome... we had a really nice time wathcing a really nice bit of Cricket...

And we won!!!... as everyone knows by now... I returned to Chatu's place... and then the discussion started... what did the two of us talked about??... alot of things... how long did it last??? till 6.00 am.... sleep... well.. yeah... we were yet to think of it...

Monday.
I returned home by 11.30 am... (my boarding place!!) slept my ass out after cleaning my room... woke up at 7.00 p.m.... had dinner!! played a little bit of computer games.... and decided that I need to sleep...
But it was too warm!!! I was sweating as if was in Sahara or something.... Then again a friend of mine called... well the same guy whom i've been hanging out with.... said he was somewhere near my boarding... so... got dressed... went for a ride.... ended up on some river bank near Pita kotte.... it was a nice serene place... with the moon on top of us... we had time for another very good constructive discussion..... it was very nice.... and headed back home at around 2.00 am...

Now that was a LOOOOOOOONG busy weekend!!!!!

Up and Down... round and round....

Kandy and Colombo...

I'm travelling up and down almost in a daily basis these days... and its KILLING ME!!!!!
Gosh... 10hrs in a plane in much much more better no matter what anyone says!!!! I'm telling ya... all those who complains about how tiring those long flights can be.... try the Kandy - Colombo intercities!!!! that three hours can almost kill you!!! make you go insane and makes you re think about how pathetic your existence can be!!!!!!

he he he......

well.. i'm so tired due to this travelling....

gosh...

wide awake after a looooong time...

OH yeah.....

I was eternally down since the start of this year... life turned out to be SOOO fucking miserable day by day!!!

but all of a sudden I feel so alive from a couple of days back.... I find new ideas... ways to work em out..

as if i'm high on weed or something!!!!
wonder what the f*** is going on with me!!!

What is really important???

It’s truly amazing how life works… How the values that you give to things swing like a pendulum… one day it’s the most important thing that you could ever have and the next it’s THE worse thing that ever happened to you... and how we cannot find the balance in between...

The question rises… are we giving the correct value to things??? What is the most important thing in your life?? Have you ever questioned yourself that?? Life can consist of so many things… your studies; your parents and family; your career; your friends; your relations; your love; your future plans; entertainment… each deserving equal amount of attention!!! But what do we do??? We cling on to only a few of them… forgetting and neglecting the others… not knowing or understanding what we’re missing...

We cling on to a love… as if it’s the only thing in life… we go against our parents breaking their hearts and creating huge problems in their lives.

Sometimes we cling on to a love we lost… neglecting our careers, wasting life, time and our self…. Where as the truth is that we’ve lost only one of the important things in our life… without realizing that we waste our time; neglecting the other factors.

After some time… you stop to think and only to realize that you’ve missed out some of the most important things in life…

I say that its lack of vision and being naïve to do that… life is far too much to be focused only one thing… and to loose everything else…

Its easier said... Much harder to go through.... but truth remains as an unchanging fact... it's one of the few things thats important in your life...

Never underestimate old people.....

An old man was sitting on a bench at the mall. A teenager walked up to the bench and sat down. He had spiked hair in all different colors: green, red, orange, blue, and yellow. The old man just stared...

Every time the teenager looked, the old man was staring...

The teenager finally said sarcastically, "What's the matter old timer, never done anything wild in your life?"...

Without batting an eye, the old man replied, "Got drunk once and had sex with a peacock. I was wondering if you were my son"...

A little drug that all of us can use!!!

Well this is somewhat old... I came across it when I was browsging through my old files... After all this time.... I still find it amusing... he he he....

Right Understanding....

What is Right Understanding of the 3 Facts!

The Blessed Buddha once said:
It is impossible, Bhikkhu and Friends, and cannot ever happen,
that one possessed of right understanding should ever regard
any phenomenon as really permanent ... or
any phenomenon as real happiness ... or
any state as a real self...
But it is quite possible that the ordinary worldling may indeed
have, entertain & act out such a naive and distorted belief...

Source:
Numerical Discourses of the Buddha. Anguttara Nikaya AN 15:1-3

This is a verse that i've picked up from an article that i've been through lately... I love Buddhism as a philosophy a way of life... it has taught me alot and i've added alot of things from his teachings to my life... maybe more than I did from anything else... but certain things (alot of things infact) I find EXTREMELY hard to fathom... like these small sentenses... in a very relative world how can anyone say anything???

Not that I don't understnad it... or maybe not see what it really is.... but when I try an go to think of it... its a VAS suject to think and work on...

Tempel Tree Flowers....

I was walking around the tiny garden at my boarding place the otherday and I came across this beauty.......

A vegetarian issue.....

Gosh I'm so busy these days.... I don't know what to do... its super to think that i'd be having ALOT of breathing time after this week....

but i did have some time to think of a little issue that I came across....

I'm a vegetarian.... I've been that for about 7-8 years now... Now I find that some people really have a problem wiht that... some of the people i work with has even developed some allergy sort of a thing towards the fact that i'm veg.. I really don't know what their problem is but I have to listen to there comments every now and then.... They've even fixed up a motto sort of a thing saying "Never trust a vegetarian" I don't know what there problem is..... or even see where and how I'm irritating them....

I'm wondering what u guys have to say about this?????

Hi People.... I'm back...

Well... it was a looooooooooooooooooooong pause... again.... why??? as some of you already know.. i was down with that wretched chikungunya fever.... and I was totally knocked out for more than a week.... i was forced to go home and rest....

well I came back to office... and had a huge pile that i had to clear wihtout tiring myself as i was not fully recovered....

i killed time watching all sorts of movies and hogging over the TV... something that I hardly do... thank you cable TV for accompanying me through some of my worst days in my life so far.....

there is a movie that i'd suggest you guys to watch... called "wicker park.." its a romantic thriller sort of a movie... it really kept me right on the edge of the seat all the way to the end of it...

find it and watch it...... and let me know what you think of it.....

Marching on a dead end road.

She slowly opened her eyes… It too a couple of seconds for her eyes to get used to the lighting conditions of the room… even though the curtains were drawn she could feel the evening…

The sun must be almost out… that’s the only explanation for the gloominess of the room… she thought to herself picking up the phone pressed a couple of keys… the LCD illuminated, 6.37PM… the display shone against the dimness of the room… her eyes started hurting disagreeing to the brightness of the mobile phone screen she quickly took her eyes off it and laid it back on the mattress…

“The day has almost passed….”

She slowly turned her head… he was still fast asleep… she could see his bare chest slowly moving up and down… she slowly leaned forward and kissed his shoulder... so gently… afraid to wake him up… he moved… muttered something in sleep… and tightened his grip around her and fell silent again…

She kept staring at him for another few seconds… filling her heart with a lot of love… a smile came over a her… effortlessly… she felt as if she could never be more happier…

She turned her head again to a more comfortable position, bringing the ceiling to her view…

She thought about her past… She remembered the day when the familiar face appeared from the crowd at the train station… She remembered how startled she was to see him walking towards him… How uncomfortable she got when he approached him and introduced himself. Even though she already knew… it was the first time they’ve officially talked to each other… She thought hard about that moment… wondering if she should feel happy or sad; for she still felt the same uncomfortable, complicated feeling that she felt at that moment.

Her thoughts were disturbed when she heard a loud honking sound outside… some stupid bus driver was making unnecessary noise on the road… she quickly looked at him… she didn’t want his sleep to be disturbed by anything… the honking stopped and she heard the bus racing its engine and slowly moving… the engine sound faded away slowly…

She let a sigh… and turned back to her thoughts…

She remembered the day he asked him out… again the same multifaceted feeling… She didn’t know how to react or even if she wanted it or not… she remembered how she simply told him to talk to her parents…

And how fast did things happened…. Soon they were to get married.... even on the wedding day she didn’t know if he’s the one she wanted… He’s good person… A VERY good person… there were no two words about it… but is he the person she wanted?? Is he what she expected in his partner for the rest of the life??? She remembered how she wondered even holding the flower bouquet in her hand…

She shut her eyes… not wanting to remember or think anymore… She wanted everything out of her head… she forced herself to think about the present… but the memories started playing vividly… the compromises she made… all of them… how she sat back and devour the unhappiness… the emptiness she felt all along… the sense of incompletion within her self… how she sacrificed her happiness over something she never understood… how her marriage became the biggest capitulation she made…

She tightened her eyelids... she wanted this to stop… opened her eyes and held him gently… forcing her thoughts to the present… for a second her heart filled with a warm delight… and then a piercing sadness… she felt complicated again….

All she ever wanted was to feel happy, to be loved and to be taken care of… but she never went pursuing it… she always waited… forcing herself to be satisfied with what she got…

She turned her head again and looked at him… thinking how happy he made her… thinking of all the understanding that he gave to her… how he made her feel whole…

She reached to her mobile pressed the key and checked the time… 6.50 PM… she kept the phone aside and looked at him again…

She let out a big sigh….. “It’s getting late… I should get going…” she thought; not noticing how her own fingers were fiddling with her ring…

Aftermath of the Mudslides at Saraa.....

People.... Its official.... After almost working for three years... I'm resigning from the company...

Reason - Utter disappointment over the recent developments....

well... not the specific incident... but the way the senior mnagement handled it.... I was sooooo dissappointed..... So disappointed over the way the approached it... and handled it.... So with utter disgust about the mind set of the people here... I've given my resignation...

It was agonizing to hear those stories about me... and the way they treat me after all this years of faithful service.... some of you guys know how much I've put in to this place....

The upside... I won't be with the back stabbing, spineless hippocrites anymore....

The downside... I will be jobless for a while.... well till I find one that is....

So... wish me all the best guys...

Bye mate... it was nice having you around!!!

Lord Buddha ones said….

Having to be away from the ones you love is poignant.

Through my life I’m leaned it and experienced it in many ways. When people pass away, when your friends and family move; go away from you. Maybe because of their jobs, maybe because of their studies… Maybe they’ll come back or maybe they won’t!!!

And the blessed one had told in the same sutra;

Having to reside or dwell with the people you abhor is also poignant.

This is some of the greatest sufferings that a human can go through….

In one of my previous posts I’ve mentioned an incident at my office… when one of the newly joined Miss Pink was almost mislead by my fellow workers. When young Miss Red wanted to spill some mud on me for some reason that god and she only knows… maybe not even god…

Ironically the whole plan backfired and we became best of friends at office… and she turned out to be one of the best people that I’ve known… She had great many qualities in her that none in the office possessed… She was matured in both life and work… she turned out to be a very faithful individual to the company.

Sadly (for me) she got a better offer and due to a little dissatisfaction at work and some major problems with her people after a reasonable amount of consideration she decided to take it… The new offer is very good for her… She’ll get some cool facilities, better working hours and she’d get to work in a field that she already knows like the back of her hand; Above all she’ll be comfortable with the people there too…

So it’s really good for her…

So I’m gonna experience both “Having to be away from the ones you!!” and “Having to reside or dwell with the people you abhor!!” as I really don’t enjoy the company of anyone here… maybe apart from the chairman of the company whom I work closely with…

I love what I do here… I enjoyed it throughout my working period here… but one thing was always lacking… that is a person that whom you can really interact with… someone who would really tone with me. A good person whom you really can treat and accept as a friend… these people have the tendency to recruit people who are to a different category as to mine… She did fit in to the category… and we made very good friends… She was eternally enthusiastic at her work; loved what she did; wanted the best for the company. She is one of the people who didn’t have the “ah well… the hell I should bother… I’d join somewhere else if it gets any harder here!!” attitude.

It’s a big loss for the company, but good for her… so… I’m happy for her… even if I’m gonna miss my good friend and lunch buddy…

(Obviously we’d still keep in touch and all that…. Not that the friendship will end or something…)

So I bid her farewell and wish her all the best at her new place… good luck my friend I know that you’d do very well wherever you are… It was nice working with you…and having you around!!!

Late night creativity......

I was havign a miserrable time lately.... a little bit of free time but nothing to do with it... I was feeling not all that well and amazingly tired... and no mood to do anything.... my mind was restless.... I tried few things to calm my self down and to get myself in to a good mood... after a million failed attempts one thing worked...

and I present to you.... my Sunday late night creativity....


The White Tree.....


water color on Grainy watercolor paper.... with a mix of pastel..... most probably this represents my restless mind... coz all of this painting came without a plan... from the scratch i didn't know what i was doing right till the end of it......


Dancing to the wind....


The more cheerful me... watercolor with large dry camel hair brush.... on watercolor paper... a million tiny dots to creat the shapes and illusions.....


Forlorn


I personally love this one.... one of the many faces of loneliness... and survival...

Happy 2007!!!

Hi all......

After a sickenning silence I am back..... before anything else... wish you all a happy new year....

well i know that its kinda bit too late in greeting you all.... well... at least now I did right...

Anyways... looking back.... an year has gone by.....
and well..... I feel more or less the same..... for this year I have some goals set... last year,.... well overall... its was pretty fucked up..... I got my heart broken and lost the woman I love..... and some of the people I really trusted betrayed and decieved me..... I was working my butt out... practically from 8.30 am to 2.00 am..... (well I was working so that it'll keep me busy and my mind occupied.... and I go home dead tired ready to fall asleep)

One of my best frieeds (female) fell in love with me.... but I didn't share the same feeling... it was an ugly scene!!! its not easy turning down someone who is dear to you... It was quite bumpy but it sort of solved with time... the friendship was more stronger and it prevailed... Thank god!!!!

Both my parents retired.... now they're at home.... I feel so sorry and happy for them at the same time... they've done the very best for the country the family and everyone around them...

There were good things too...

I joined in Blogger and I met u guys... it was superb...... the best thing that happened.....

my friend came back to SL after almost eight years... we had a good time together.... that was one of the most enjoyable things in the past year...

I'm going to become an uncle!!!! The first baby in our family...... hurrah!!! :-)

and my elderst brother got a transfer from Jaffna to Colombo.... he is a military guy... he was over looking a small camp right at the end of the country... Point Pedro....

I met some of the nicest people that i've ever met... some from the blog it self ... a few from work...

I started a Part time job.... at a market reserch place and again.... met some VERY.. ULTIMATELY nice people.... it has the best crowd ever..... very understanding and nice people....

guess life is like that... full of ups and downs..... the real strenght is when you can face each and everything with an equanimous heart and mind.... good times- bad times, the flowers they shower at you and the shit they throw at you... everything in an equonamouse mind... coz in the end... nothing really matters.... all that really matters is how you faced it... how you handled it...

so again.... I wish you all the very best for the coming year... may you all get the strength to face and overcome all the evil that you face with... work and live up to your dreams.... and enjoy every step on your way....

May the blessings of the tripple gem will be with you....

ALL THE BEST PEOPLE....